Monday, April 27, 2009
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since the beginning of this year i have been realizing something..
things are alot different now. i dont talk to or hang out with as many people as i used to. ive noticed that the friends i used to be close with in the past are beginning to drift away. but why? is it because ive grown up? because ive changed whats important to me? because ive become a different person?
in the past i was always into hanging out with a lot of people and making new friends all the time. i remember i used to talk to so many people. it was fun dont get me wrong but lately i feel like what was the use of all that? why did i feel like it was so important to meet and hang out with as many people as i can? all the people i used to talk to have just become annoying and not really worth my time... i really just dont care anymore....
also,i used to feel like it was important for everyone to like me. i always had to make a good impression when i met someone new. changed how i presented myself and became someone i thought that everyone would like and never show the real me. but now i realize that i dont really care what people think of me. im tired of what people have to say about me, of people that use me for something, and tired of always catering to them because i worry about how theyre feeling but never have any consideration for me. so ive gotten rid of all that.
nowadays ive been comfortable with just talking to close friends on a regular basis. but even then there are times when my close friends have done things that make me question our friendships.. even with my close friends ive felt scared to open up and put up a front because i dont want them to think im weak. but now i been slowly opening up and showing them how i really am the way they react to it will show me what kind of person they really are.
people used to say that ive changed so much lately. i used to take it as a bad thing.. but now i embrace it. yeah i changed.. but for the better. its part of growing up. getting rid of everything in the past and hanging on to positive people that can better myself..
things are alot different now. i dont talk to or hang out with as many people as i used to. ive noticed that the friends i used to be close with in the past are beginning to drift away. but why? is it because ive grown up? because ive changed whats important to me? because ive become a different person?
in the past i was always into hanging out with a lot of people and making new friends all the time. i remember i used to talk to so many people. it was fun dont get me wrong but lately i feel like what was the use of all that? why did i feel like it was so important to meet and hang out with as many people as i can? all the people i used to talk to have just become annoying and not really worth my time... i really just dont care anymore....
also,i used to feel like it was important for everyone to like me. i always had to make a good impression when i met someone new. changed how i presented myself and became someone i thought that everyone would like and never show the real me. but now i realize that i dont really care what people think of me. im tired of what people have to say about me, of people that use me for something, and tired of always catering to them because i worry about how theyre feeling but never have any consideration for me. so ive gotten rid of all that.
nowadays ive been comfortable with just talking to close friends on a regular basis. but even then there are times when my close friends have done things that make me question our friendships.. even with my close friends ive felt scared to open up and put up a front because i dont want them to think im weak. but now i been slowly opening up and showing them how i really am the way they react to it will show me what kind of person they really are.
people used to say that ive changed so much lately. i used to take it as a bad thing.. but now i embrace it. yeah i changed.. but for the better. its part of growing up. getting rid of everything in the past and hanging on to positive people that can better myself..
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